My over thinking brain. Would you kindly p*** off.

Why do I feel angry all the time. I’ve never felt like this before. I’m usually quite a chilled bloke. I never let anything bother me. But lately it just seems like everything is pissing me off. If something is happening I usually just keep my mouth shut but lately I’ve been having outbursts and saying what I’m actually thinking. I don’t know if I’m just over thinking this (there has been a lot going on in my personal life) so maybe that isn’t helping either.

I literally want to just to tell everyone to fuck off and leave me alone. I’m sure that’s just my depression trying to take over again. Well that can also fuck off aswell. As it’s not going to win.Β  I wish someone could take this away so I’d never have it again. Taking tablets just don’t work sometimes and pretty sure there isn’t an alternative.

I may have to go back to the doctor’s to see what else can be done. I’ve been eating really badly lately aswell so that won’t be helping my mood at all. So I could get that into check and hopefully that will help ease up things upstairs.

My head really needs an off switch. I’m over thinking everything lately and pissing myself off with it. Which is unfair to the people around me.

Think I’m going to end it there as I need to keep busy and stop thinking about this shit that’s going on in my head.

I apologise for the curse words but they seemed to fit better while I was writing 🀣

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11 thoughts on “My over thinking brain. Would you kindly p*** off.

  1. Hey, you’re letting it out, so that’s good πŸ™‚ I may not understand what you’re going through but bro, you doing good so far. I know that you know that everything passes, so i won’t tell you that(does it count if I just phrased it like that? :P) Do you have a therapist?

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    1. Thank you I find writing it on here helpful. I don’t have a therapist. I think writing it down really helps alot. I’ve tried it before but I’m not one for talking one to one. I just clamp up and don’t say anything πŸ˜‚

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      1. I’m happy to hear you find writing it out therapeutic! Make sure you admire life, too, as I think the mind starts making connections between thoughts and before long it only likes to take that path as it’s easier(not sure if you get what I’m saying…hehe)

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    1. Thank you I really appreciate it. I think I will just go for it on the next post. I find swearing wuite helpful especially when you can’t think of a certain word. Or that’s just my bad vocabulary 🀣

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  2. I used to get panic attacks and day dream about my death. It’s very unsettling. What I turned to was my physical health and eating better. I’ve lost weight and made gainz. But it was still happening. Then a few months ago, me and my wife started working on a blog and looking to monetize. I love the buisness end of it. Moving to something I love and being extremely productive, while working on my health and fitness has made me happy. Changed everything. I don’t know if this helps, but it worked for me.

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