Lately I’ve been seeing my depression as a part of me. I’ve been selfless enough in thinking that it wasn’t actually apart of. I always thought of it as some ‘thing’ as I always thought I could never control it. Which in actual fact you can’t. I’m learning now to do deal with a lot better than I ever have. Yes I am on medication for it. Which I honestly think I need. I tried dealing with it without medication before and I seemed to be feeling worse. I couldn’t get a hold of myself and felt I was in a constant pit just falling deeper and deeper. I’m lucky enough that I’ve got an amazing family and friends around me. Even though most of them don’t know that I’m actually depressed. They are helping with out realising. I can honestly say I’m quite embarrassed to tell people who I’m depressed. I don’t know why I just find it hard for me open up and talk to people about it. Except on here I find it quite easy.
I think this is my way of dealing with it. Writing it on my blog. This wasn’t my intention for my blog. My blog my rules as another blogger keeps mentioning 😂😂 I’m usually quite open and seem to have one of those faces where people come for advice for any of their problems. If any of you have any problems just send me a message and we can talk through things. I find hiding behind a screen helps a lot. You haven’t got people looking and judging you.
I’ve missed doing this. It’s been a long time since I’ve expressed some sort of feelings into words.