Blogger interactions.

0A while ago I asked my fellow bloggers if any of them would like to work together on a post. There was a few that actually responded. I do apologise for the late post 🤣 I also forgot to write down the list of amazing bloggers that wanted todo this. Again I’m sorry about the delay. I hadn’t forgotten about you all.

 

So you awesome people what would you like to collaborate about. It can be about anything within reason 🤣 maybe leave a comment and we can get the ball rolling.

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Wow!!!!

This is unbelievable I’d like to thank bronzedbrunettex for being my 400th follwer on my blog. I’ve just had a quick glance at her blog and it seems to be really interesting. I will be having a proper look at her blog soon. I now need todo a competition post and see what books I can part with  😂 I honestly can’t thank you all enough and feel very appreciative to everyone of you. I’d never thought my little blog would make it this far. I’m going to leave it there and thank you all again for being amazing.

 

Would like to help.

I’ve been thinking recently that I’d like to help anyone with mental health issues. I don’t know if my posts help at all? Which I hope they do. I think my experiences may help someone or just someone to talk to. I’m no psychologist and won’t ve able to give medical advice. You will have to goto your doctor’s and talk to them. Please just leave a comment. I used to be embarrassed about it. Kind of still am sometimes as not many people know I’ve got depression. I find it easier to talk on here than someone face to face. I kind of think people will be judgemental about it. I even had what I thought was a friend say that “depression was just a weakness” which really fucking pissed me off to the point where I could’ve punched the twat in the face to make him realise how much of am obnoxious twat he’d been. Sorry I’m just ranting now. Just to let everyone no that my inbox is always open and no that’s definitely not a sexual innuendo 😂

Becoming a Dad

I made this post for lilycafe which was on her blog. Please go and check her blog out.

Well what can I say 😀 the first words come to mine when I was with my daughter when were alone together (her Mam had gone for a wash) I was sitting in the chair looking at this beautiful fragile child (who had the hiccups) thinking Fuck!! I need to grow up and look after this little thing. During the pregnancy I never really thought about being up all night, getting sick on or changing multi coloured poops 😀 I honestly thought this would be easy when my partner was still pregnant. I think the first few days flew by as I was still on a high becoming a Dad. Then it finally settled in but we had a routine going which worked really well from the start.

I never used to drink coffee before my daughter came along but now I’m an avid drinker with anything that has caffeine in it 😂 I’ve never been so tired but you do get used to eat. I even have the odd nap during the day when she was asleep if I was really tired. For the first few months I only ever changed nappies as my partner breast feed. It was 3/4 months after my daughter was born when I fed her for the first time. It was an amazing experience. I’ve feed babies before but it’s not that same as your own child.

Days turn into weeks then months and years. It has been difficult I’m not going to say it was easy when it wasn’t. I think it made me and my partners relationship even more stronger. Your always learning as a parent as there isn’t a parent book you get to leave with from the hospital 🤣

I think I’ve grown as a person becoming a father. It is the best job in the world. My work patterns mean I miss out on a lot but I do make up for it when I get home. I will just go into her room and watch her sleep for a few minutes just so I’ve seen her. I didn’t think I could love something so little so much. Now I’m going to be a dad again in September and can’t wait even though I’ve got abit more of an idea what to expect this time.

If you’re a parent, what advice would you give to first time parents.

My over thinking brain. Would you kindly p*** off.

Why do I feel angry all the time. I’ve never felt like this before. I’m usually quite a chilled bloke. I never let anything bother me. But lately it just seems like everything is pissing me off. If something is happening I usually just keep my mouth shut but lately I’ve been having outbursts and saying what I’m actually thinking. I don’t know if I’m just over thinking this (there has been a lot going on in my personal life) so maybe that isn’t helping either.

I literally want to just to tell everyone to fuck off and leave me alone. I’m sure that’s just my depression trying to take over again. Well that can also fuck off aswell. As it’s not going to win.  I wish someone could take this away so I’d never have it again. Taking tablets just don’t work sometimes and pretty sure there isn’t an alternative.

I may have to go back to the doctor’s to see what else can be done. I’ve been eating really badly lately aswell so that won’t be helping my mood at all. So I could get that into check and hopefully that will help ease up things upstairs.

My head really needs an off switch. I’m over thinking everything lately and pissing myself off with it. Which is unfair to the people around me.

Think I’m going to end it there as I need to keep busy and stop thinking about this shit that’s going on in my head.

I apologise for the curse words but they seemed to fit better while I was writing 🤣

Depression and anxiety. Even if it helps one person.

*sorry for the long post*

I found out I had depression when I was sitting on my bathroom floor crying my eyes out wondering what my families life’s would be like if I wasn’t alive. At the time I was doing 70+ hour weeks probably be home twice a week. I hardly seen my partner or had time to even switch off and relax. I can’t pinpoint why my depression happens feels like it came out of nowhere. I had a chat with my partner which was hard as I’m not one for talking. She helped alot as I was going down a dark road especially when I had feelings of wanting to I can’t even say the word it’s that horrible to even think of it now. So I went the normal route going to the doctor’s I did get offered to speak to psychologist and support groups but as I’m not much of a talker I didn’t want to waste anyones time as I wouldn’t have showed up. Anyway I did get put on medication which after a week or 2 seemed to really help except the odd mood swing. This carried on for 6 months then I thought I don’t need a tablet to make me feel better. So i went cold turkey and came of the medication which to the advice of my doctor and partner wasn’t the best thing todo. But after a week I felt better and felt great not waking up every morning to take a tablet. 5 years later I’m back on them. As I seemed to be going down the same dark road I was going down when I first became depressed. So I informed my partner who had noticed my mood change. Becoming distant mood swings not wanting to interact with anyone even my daughter. So again I went back to the doctor’s got offered to talk to someone but declined again and was given medication again. After another couple of weeks feeling weird I felt the medication starting to work and I’m still on it as i feel like I need it. I also had an anxiety attack this time around which never happend before. I can’t explain it  but it was very frightening. If anyone is going through something like this then please open up to someone anybody even if it’s on here. Advice can really help alot so ask away if needed. Sorry for the long post I’m not going to proof read it as I didn’t like writing it never mind reading it again apologies for any mistakes.

This is a repost.

My June blogging.

I’ve published quite a few posts this month. I obviously didn’t have anything better todo 😂 I will link my posts down below. I got a few nominations and awards. I know go me 🤗 I was that suprised I didn’t even have a speech prepared. I did ring my parents and they were ever so proud. I’m waiting for my local paper to come around and do a full-page spread 🤣

I obviously done a few book reviews. Which done quite well I thought and had a few comments.

I also made a post about my first tattoo experience. Also made a post about how going to the gym is having a positive affect on my mental health.

Yes I know I’m rambling 🤣 I also did a post with another blogger about being a father. Go and check thelilycafe blog aswell as it’s amazing.

Finally I somehow managed to get 300 followers. I still can’t get my head around it. What a month June was, I everyone is having positive month and enjoying this beautiful weather we are having here in the UK.

Book Club

So I’ve been told that I need to cut back on buying books as apparently I’ve got enough. I’ve even joined a library to compensate which I think is fantastic. This had me thinking (yes this doesn’t happen very often 🤣) We could sort some sort  of book club where we could send each other books through the post of books that we might think each other will like. Preferably in the U.K. just to save on postage.

Would anyone like this to happen or would it just be a daft idea.

Rise of the Reaper by Lorna Reid

Can you change fate? What would you risk in order to save the ones you love? Lovers of dark adventure, magic, and following your heart should not let this book slip away.

Can prophecy be overcome, or does striving to avoid fate merely drive you into its arms? Since the day Danny Stone’s mother vanished, dreams of dark and strange places have plagued him nightly. Though years have passed, the burning pain of her disappearance still consumes him – as does his need for answers. Then one lazy summer day, Danny and his friends Katrina, Poppy, and Russell discover their parents’ long-hidden secret – and their lives change forever.

They enter a fragmented, broken world of magic, blades, and blood in a quest for answers, but the mystery of what happened to Danny’s mother only becomes more terrifying – and yet there is hope. But there are other, bigger threats at hand, too, as evil begins to stir and the Oracle’s prophesies herald a coming darkness.

It seems that Danny’s dreams were only the beginning…

Rise of the Reaper is the first book in an exciting new YA fantasy series by British author Lorna Reid. A perilous quest, filled with magic, blades, and blood. This adventure will make your pulse quicken, even as the shadows begin to stir.

I recieved this ebook from Netgalley for an honest and unbiased review.

 

This books jumps straight into the action from the get go. Our character’s get thrown in to a magical new world that they haven’t been there before. There is a vast range of character’s. It can be quite confusing at first but once you get your head around them, you will be reading through this book like a bat out of hell.

Lorna’s world and character building has to be some of the best I’ve read for along time. It’s so descriptive that it will have your imagination going over time. It’s not like your typical generic fantasy world. I’m never going to look at another fantasy book again. This sets a high standard.

This book does have abit of swearing in it (so if you don’t like swearing then probably just skip those bits 😂)

If you want start a new YA series then this is the best place to start. I’d highly recommend it. I would give this book a 4.5/5 also one last thing is the cover. How amazing does it actually. It’s beautiful.

Going to the gym, helping my mental health issues.

I’ve been going to the gym now constantly for 3 months and feeling fantastic. I’m not having many bad days as I used to. I’m not saying that going to the gym has cured me. I’m saying that it has given me a different focus. I’m not just sitting pondering about things like I used to. Work is starting to stress me out again but I’m trying not think about it. I used to come home and bring my stress with me and sit at home like a bear with a sore tooth. Which isn’t fair on the people around me. Now as soon as I leave work I switch off and don’t think about work till my next shift. It’s starting to work but it can be hard sometimes.

I have been thinking a lot lately about coming off my medication. I did do this last time without my doctor’s consent and the effects of doing this was horrible as I just went cold turkey.

I’m not going to do this as this may just be a temporary feeling. I’m hoping this continues for the next few months then I will go and see my doctor.

I always think that I shouldn’t have to take a pill to make me happy. I do realise that they do help. Yes they aren’t going to work straight away, they do take a while to start working. I’m now thinking that if I do stop I will start having anxiety attacks which are horrible. I’ve only ever had 2 and wouldn’t wish them on anybody.

To finish this post off, I was going to ask if anyone would like to talk about anything, just send me a message on here or through my twitter.